I’m D…ISCOVERING
the ancient paths again
steadily climbing out
of the deception the devil had me in
steadily breaking free from the lies attached to sin
steadily stealin away..to be stashed again
In the shadow of HIS wings
to be fashioned in..His image..and if its true
that you become what you behold
then let me behold
you CHRIST
as you be
ARE HOLDING ME
so I can be whole again
and be holy as you are holy . Not talkin bout religion or man’s man made egotistical tradition
talkin bout Psalms 91.He who dwells in the secret place of the most High shall abide in the shadow of the Almighty an invitation so inviting yet I find myself often fighting..better yEt decling your offer.
Like a scoffer
Like a Mocker
Like a mockingbird making early morning sunday songs singing…
but the rest of the days,weeks,and hours
What am I bringing to You?
Is it a heart fully devoted or is it self preservation and half-hearted meditation and sugary selfishness candy-coated -convenience.
Mocking you
Giving you tidbits of me thats never fully satisfying
Like candy canes and trinket things in Christmas stockings
when I’m really most interested in whats under the Christmas tree-Like your really most interested in my giving you every part of me whole-heartedly,but steadily i continue to exuse my apathy.
Instead of inquiring and asking ,Jeremiah 6;16.. Where is that good way?,so that I can walk in it -Where is the ancient path?- so that i can stand at the crossroads look and ask
So Lord here am I asking
this journey called a life of faith is mine for the having
I mean mine for the taking as I press on to take hold of that for which you Jesus took hold of me
Like paul in Phillipians 3
12 let me delve deeper further in You embracing your Jealousy
Because it was your whole-hearted desire for me that sent you to the cross of calvary- as you embraced the tree for the joy set before you.
But often times i find that i choose to ignore you
and run after other lovers like whore who
forsakes the way of life to run like a swift she camel into the desert – into the night
or Hosea’s wife
or the Israelites before the golden calf
which should invoke you wrath
see this is no laugh-
ing matter because he or she who is not for you is against you,and he who does not gather scatters according to
Matthew 12;30
and so therefore my flirting
with other lovers
LEAVES YOU HURTING
See I know full well my adulterous behavior and half -hearted offerings are entirely insulting
which is highly offensive arousing aversion, disgusting,revolting,repulsing
But yet
Your kindness and mercy are causing me
to cling speedily immediately to you again
Your constant steadfast love causes me to
confront this sin.
Your burning fiery eyes takes me aback a wins-over my heart and then
I’m undone
Your truth makes me aware of my nothingness-but you Choose not to leave me there and then I’m undone
I can not run,I can not pretend,I can not deny that I just have been
APPREHENDED
Confronted with love,cleansed with blood,covered completely,and clothed sweetly
In the Name of Jesus
and NOW, recognizing that this love given me…
undeservedly,although greatly appreciated, definitely must be
RECIPROCATED
poured ON TO the Creator from the created-
First love fires plague.
earthy passions fade
Temporal things become vague
and I am fascinated by You. One true living God-and for YOU,Living one
I WAS MADE.
-poem by K.Gassery